River's Edge Urban Academy

Homeschooling 4 kids ages 9, 6, 4 and baby while working as a postpartum nurse and lactation counselor.

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Sorry for the lack of recent posts. I am having a tough time this fall. Don't anyone worry, I am okay, it is just a little more of a struggle to do what I need to do each day, and blogging is just not a priority.
I may follow a friend's lead and end my blog in dignity, rather than letting it sputter out. But not yet.
I have had the privilege and honor of attending the most fascinating and informative lactation counselor certification class this week. The instructor/speaker is Karin Cadwell, PhD, IBCLC, RN, etc. etc. and she is amazing. I am so re-energized towards my work life so that is a relief. The week of simulating the full-time working mom thing will hopefully re-energize me towards homeschooling and parenting, too.
School only has felt adequate this month. I really (again) overscheduled J, and because my energy and attitude have been so bad I haven't been doing everything I set out to, although my written schedule looks completely do-able.
Zeff really hasn't been getting much from me either. I am actually very glad that he is in two morning programs because there have been days where that was the only time he was read to other than at bedtime. Waaahh!
The house is coming along. So that is good, but when you are struggling not to be depressed, and it takes all of your effort to keep the house from looking like a garbage house, having plaster dust everywhere and all the stuff from your bathroom moved into your bedroom can be a wee bit overwhelming.
So boohoohoo and waahhh....
BTW, I am working on finishing my seven 7s tag from tenniel.

Saturday, October 01, 2005

My Life On A Rollercoaster
We went and saw THE HOUSE. It was indeed lovely and perfect and even better than we thought it would be. And on the market NOW, as opposed to in the FUTURE, which is when our house will be ready for the market. For forty-eight insane hours we actually thought we would madly finish all our projects over the next two weeks. HAHAHAHA!
When we came to our senses we realized that we just cannot possibly get things together that quickly. So...if the house is there in January, it is SO OURS. And if not then there will be something else (I say as my inner four year old screams and kicks her feet, "NO!!! WANT THIS HOUSE!!!!!!!"). But really, I believe in fate and if it is meant to be, it will be there in 4 months and if it is not then I will try to have faith that there is something better out there for us.
So that is what I do nothing but obsess about these days.
Do you think checking the online MLS listing three times a day to see if the status has changed to pending will keep other people from trying to buy my house? I will do it just in case.
Once again, written way too late at night and not edited.